I have been a jerk lately, or should i say from the start of the year?
ehh wait maybe not the start of the year, erm maybe when school sem started?
When school started i have been a living zombie,
maybe a more friendly living zombie but still one.
Should i say i was blinded by how smartass my classmates was
that i started to be totally inferior to them.
Life became like a rushing bulet train when we started lectures and tutorial,
everything or should i say every information
was running through my head and only a few percentage remain in my head.
like wth,
weekends was my only way of escaping the harsh world in school,
and frankly to say i did not include God when i was resting my ass off.
and i felt that gg to church was a burden,
OK FINALLY I HAVE LET IT OUT OF MY CHEST!
it was my first time committing to sth so religious,
and iam alone without the support and encouragement from my family,
i felt so JERK-lish for being such a jerk.
AND I FREAKING DUN CARE WHETHER A JERK IS MEANT FOR A MALE OR FEMALE,
i am one i noe.
And i have to continue to uphold my committment towards God,
and i am sorry for skipping services like billion kazillion times.
but ndp my mum wasn't very happy about me spending so much time outside,
weekends was suppose to be family hours.

I AM A F**KING SINNER,
please forgive me Lord :(
and thanks for letting me realise how shitty i was this whole sinning period.
and i have to apologise to Candy,
Renette and Elizabeth and my whole cell group for being such a jerk sorry :(