Sometimes it is so annoying to feel like nothing,
when people around me are like suffering.
When I feel like nothing,
it somehow always gets me into minor consequences
that I have to always reflect upon
and end up feeling sour about it.

ended up talking to juli about something virtual again.
when do I always feel so empty within?
argh, trying so hard to fill it up,
but ended up it is just a tiny, irritating vacuum,
that wouldn't have anything for a substitute.

whatever it is,
I hope to get rid of that vacuum soon,
or it will become a enormous black hole in time to come,
and ended up swallowing me up.
wish me luck.

,alee

nothing about me is worth liking!