It's so hard to stay awake nowadays.
It's so hard to wake up early nowadays.
It's so hard to talk to people nowadays.
It's so hard to put in the effort to do what I want to do nowadays.
Why?
But I am glad to have spend time with my family today.
It's so nice to see us happily eating together today.
And I am very very grateful for that.
I wish to dream of her everyday,
she will give me advices on how to make my life a better one.
I miss her so much.
Dinner at home is so different without her presence,
though eating together there is always seems to be an awkward barrier among us.
Humph, maybe I haven't been trying my best to do anything.

Sometimes I talk too much
Sometimes I just don't wish to do anything
Is there a moderation for everything?
If there is please tell me..
I am grasping for air to breathe now,
yet I keep choking.

No more complaints
No more mood swings
I just want to be myself.

,alee.

i miss meisiew :(