Holidays baby! :)

OK! It the holidaes and i can't wait to blog about my holidaes and my complaints!
Frk it! Frk it! I knew everything will be frking shitty up to this extend.
I have a MAJOR PROBLEM, if i say I MEANT MAJOR!
I have a frking habit of procrastinating and horrible time management.
I thought i could hide it all, but i can't,
i thought i could just left it as it is and dun do anything about it.
Well, guess wat, Nothing ever worked,
I totally need to schedule, but why can't everything fall into place nicely for me?
WHY ALL THE FRKING THINGS CLASH TOGETHER?
is this a lesson? Or is this a frking reminder?
I dunno, i am too frking confused to understand it.

Frankly to say, GROWING UP SUCKS BIG TIME!
when you were younger, you always have big dreams of growing up,
but now when it are growing at such a fast pace that you started to regret.
I need a life of my own, I want to live my life on my own.
And fate just enjoy playing tricks on me.
I yearn for this, i yearn for that,
but what do i get in return after doing all of that?
Always the same thing, Nothing, it is like i wasting my time doing of that.
Screw that talk about being free, I feel like i am chain up in a cage everyday, and the cage is shrinking everyday.
Responsibility also another burden on the mind.
ARGH. With family, with friends, I have everything.
But I have no TIME dammit.
Too much for me to handle. I want to give up sometimes.
But i know i have to take up this responsibilities myself.
End of the bragging.
:)
This week holidays were pretty fun.
I went out with the usual peeps from school and we had fun shopping and stuff.
Wow, i really love the taste of the chocolate cream frappeccino. It was frking heavenly i tell ya.
And come down that i am a frking spendrift and i am not afraid to SCREAM TO THE WHOLE WORLD! I AM FRKING SPENDRIFT! I totally have no sense of budgeting, and please SOMEBODY SAVE ME!
Yes i want to save, I REALLY REALLY WANT TO!
But everything that is in my wishlist frking needs $$$$$$.
ARGH, and mum and dad have all that big talk about the $$$$ issue, and sometimes i am quite sick of it, but no choice I have to gulp it all down and try to change this FRKING habit of mine.
So sadly, i spent the rest of my first week of holidaes rotting at home, and trying my best to save but guess what? Holidays i dun have any allowance.
CRAP! And now? Chalet is coming and i dun even noe whether thee parents allow me to go or not. I am bound to spend the amount of money, so i am really resisting the decision of having fun or saving money. And the thing about staying over at the chalet, it isn't a good idea BECAUSE IT IS DURING SCHOOLING period. SEE WHAT I MEAN ABOUT FATE LOVES TO PLAY TRICKS IN MY LIFE? ARGH,
i need time to think.
One day when i grow older and have a head of white hair,
I will read this entries and reflect upon my life.
Is it worth it? Or not?
I seriously need to think.
-karasu.
Dramas that must be watched! :
Hanazakari no kimitachi.
Proposal daisakusen.