she is gone.

gone forever.

with just a blink of an eye,

I am already turning 18.

I was still hoping 

she could be part of the guest list

when I get married in another 10 years.

but I guess it is impossible already.

everything starts to change,

I am going to move,

going to adapt to another new life.

so many events has passed, 

but the spirit is dying down.

I am already going to start to

put in the effort to make everything back again.

I am already feeling so apologetic 

to everything that I have to miss 

to settle my thing.

I am sick and tired of everything already.

argh, how can I make this life better again.

,alee.