Long awaited study break is finally here!
But sadly I did not have a good start,
well, now I have my cousins and my brother in my room,
playing dota and going crazy over it.
The amount of noise pollution is definitely not going to help me memorise imm.
kill me please.

and Funshion beta is way cool. I am so busted!

lastly, i just realized my imm notes are 2.4cm thick.
please kill me.

,alee.

and i am fking lazy to reply tags LOL.

LEMME LET OUT SOME ANGER HERE!

CCTA SUCK!
OR SHOULD I SAY?!
GLPY U SUCK!
why didn't u give us proper instructions to study wat?!
Then how the F do you expect us to study?
Study everything?
SIAO AR! WIKI HOW TO MEMORISE ALL OF THAT?!
notes also fking not complete!
ARGH! !@$@$#%$^^%&^(!!

i had a nice chat with renee ytd at amk hub, love it to bits :)
anytime u need me, just gimme a call kay :D haha.
LOVE TATUss :D haha


SCREAMS,alee.

whee, everything is going back to normal already.

oh ya,
I swear I am getting resistant to "saying" alrdy haha.
so Jannah, Sally, or whoever who likes to tease me,
get urself capsules, to fight my resistants. LOL.

sorry, was revising too much MMB.
,alee.

she is gone.

gone forever.

with just a blink of an eye,

I am already turning 18.

I was still hoping 

she could be part of the guest list

when I get married in another 10 years.

but I guess it is impossible already.

everything starts to change,

I am going to move,

going to adapt to another new life.

so many events has passed, 

but the spirit is dying down.

I am already going to start to

put in the effort to make everything back again.

I am already feeling so apologetic 

to everything that I have to miss 

to settle my thing.

I am sick and tired of everything already.

argh, how can I make this life better again.

,alee.

Today I hate three things.
1st:
NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC SAFEASSIGN.
like wtf?!
it scan my project can scan until got relations with people whom I never talk to before,
maybe I know one of them,
but I never talk to him online before.
I SWEAR!
and it just have to show until I copy whole chunk.
PEOPLE ENGLISH BUAY SAI AR KANASAI!
if everyone ENGLISH SAME STANDARD THEN SENTENCES WILL BE FORMED SAMELY WAT!
PLUS IT STUFF EVERYONE ANSWER THE SAME QUESTIONS LAH.
everyone will be using the same keywords wat, it depends on how we form the sentences only.
same same cannot ar?!
argh. I going to hack NP's safeassign soon, WATCH OUT.

2nd:
PHANG CHEE BOON aka bias bastard.
your fking eyes today like especially BIG AR, O_O
dun believe then say lah,
I also told you, I did not copy lah,
got refer but never copy lor!
you dun need to keep repeating yourself over and over again.
OVER THE SAME QUESTION,
I ANSWER ONCE AND FOR ALL,
I NEVER COPIED, AND I DUNNO THIS PEOPLE.
like freaking irritating lah.
and thanks goodness I wun be seeing you again next sem,
YOU BIAS PIECE OF !@#$%^&*!

3rd:
hais, lastly, myself.
I hate myself badly.
for being so lazy,
for being annoying to myself,
for being so sensitive,
for being so concern over stupid matters.
for putting so much hope on so many things.
for thinking of revenge.
for neglecting important people.
I think a self check soon.

and I have to agree with what hh's blog theme have to say.
We ignore the ones who adore us,
adore the ones who ignore us,
love the ones who hurt us,
and hurt the ones that love us.

I am a victim, a guilty, an accuse.

, alee.

Everyday is the same thing,
eat, study, play, sleep.
I need a new life soon.
2 more years and I think I going to be outta this country.
really sick and tired.
I want a new environment to adapt to,
need to make some plans already.

hais, life is so bored here,
everyone is undergoing the same thing.
the same stress, the same problems.
No other problems to talk about,
only the same old love, friendship and stupid childish problems.
sometimes being too concerned also very tiring.
being too sensitive also very tiring,
maybe I should learn to be like Julianty,
not to abhor her dun care atitude but to accept it
or even better ask her to impart it.

think too much also no good,
think so little also no good.
so how the hell to know to think in moderation?
how to think of that problem in moderation?
I seriously dunno how.
I really want to stop being so utterly sensitive over minor issues,
I really want to give up.
Just don't care. Don't care would be good for me.
and maybe for my hair too.

Advices, are so contradicting.
but I accept them nevertheless.
thanks to those who advise like ever.
especially, my good friends beside me
and those two who sms me and hear my same crap every single day.
thanks!
and thanks to those in msn also, who listen to my nonsense,
every single day also,
and my irritating troubles over ...
sigh, things should get better soon.
or should I say
things will get better if i change.
I dunno, need to sort out my thoughts all over again.
Argh it is so tiring.
Now i totally understand and appreciate stoning.
Stoning is totally healthy.

If you can understand this, GOOD FOR YOU!
If you cannot, :)

and of course thanks jimmy also my dear dear diary :)

I need to listen to my mind. My mind is more impt now.

ARGH, alee

tag replies:
SALLY: LOL! :) I seriously love you gurls man, being there to hear all my craps. THANKS :)!
NISA: ok NIC can be shared :)
FANNY: YAY at least I am inside, HOW COME he so big portion?! no fair :(
LIONEL: LOL is this a sick joke? You don't seem to be the Lionel I noe right? Weird.. This is creeping me out like seriously. IDENTIFY YOURSELF!
JANNAH: okok AH WANG sounds like AH BENG name HAHA. HUAT AH!
ELISA: yeah, jannah forever funny one ;D *SWIM AWAY*
SHIYUN: yup! Wah another year of training like madness, need to be mentally prepared and physically prepared esp my lungs man.

weekends,
fruitful weekends,
went shopping most of the time,
spending lotsa $$ i think mum has bonus :)
haha! slept A LOT ALSO!
I think I starting to be like an animal,
hibernation makes me full again,
then weekdays another round of sleeping less than 6 hours! :D
bad for health but I can't help it.
HOLIDAYSS FASTER COMEE!

The weather is turning for the BEST!
I WANT S'PORE TO SNOW!
RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!
:)
shoo off sunn!
makes me so tanned! BOOHOO!

time is passing by so slow right now. :(
and I found out something really hurting and pissed.


"A true friend will help even though how difficult the situation is, SO ARE YOU A TRUE FRIEND? "

"dunno" is a word I ABHOR FROM TODAY.

tag replies:
SELV: YESH YESH ADDING SOON~
CHAR: HELLOOOOO!
ASYRAFF: SURRENDER YOUR EMAIL :)!

SOBS!

It is alrdy 12.32am and I feel really pathetic.
Only 2 people wished me happy birthday :(
Kana shoot by stupid Benjamin say I dun have any Human Affiliation.
I guess I really dun after all. :(
SO SAD!

So disappointed lah, even my BFF also never wished me.
WHAT BFFs are they man!
:'( I go emo.